Amanda - I always thought that our friendship was about being there for you...its only now that you're gone that I realize how much you were there for me. You were an amazing friend and you taught me so much about kindness, relationships, pain, perserverence, health and above all love - love for God, Steve and your family and friends. Amanda, you were never dying or feeling sorry for yourself, but living and being thankful and then living less and being more thankful. I asked you once how you couldn't ask "why me?" and you told me of all the things you had to be thankful for. I will always value the perspective and priorities you had in your full life. I know how much you loved Steve and didn't always feel you had the energy to show it - but your face would light up and soften when you spoke about him. I know you worried about him and I wish you could know the peace he has knowing you got the victory. I know you can't read this, but if you could would know how much you are valued and missed with mixed emotions knowing that you weren't afraid to die and that you were willing for God's plan and time. I'll miss the excruciatingly long time it took you to decide what hand to play in cards. I'll miss your perfection and the way you pretended you didn't care when I messed up a card. I'll miss you birthday cards and presents 3 months late, "I'm celebrating your brithday in November this year :)". I'll miss your familiar hobble and timely jokes about your latest addition or condition - never lamenting. I'll miss your crazy hair days. The things I'll miss the most is your hugs and the great honest talks we shared. I love you.